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04 April 2011 @ 03:56 pm
Title: So Just Hold On
Rating: G
Word Count: 922
Summary: Maybe that's why he's hit with a surge of protectiveness when Doojoon confesses – not to Yoseob, but to Junhyung about Yoseob.
Notes: Beautiful/I Like You The Best MV 'verse. 3 AM ramblings. I was trying to write porn, and then this popped into my mind. So. I did it instead. 8D

'Manipulative' is the word Junhyung would use if he were to attempt to concisely describe Yoseob. That and 'cute', but that directly ties in with 'manipulative' anyway, so he probably wouldn't bother. Other people say it enough; Yoseob doesn't need it to go to his head.

Not that it will, though. For all of Yoseob's self-declarations of his own adorableness, he doesn't actually believe any of it. It's something Junhyung has been trying to break him of – self-deprecation that only he gets to see, while the rest of the world gets an act of conceitedness. Junhyung thinks that Yoseob is the best actor he's ever seen – and they have movie marathons once a week with Dongwoon and Doojoon after practice.

Best friend business, he supposes. Maybe that's why he's hit with a surge of protectiveness when Doojoon confesses – not to Yoseob, but to Junhyung about Yoseob.

"It's stupid," Doojoon says, plugging and unplugging his headphones, again and again; anything to avoid Junhyung's gaze, it seems.

"It's not," Junhyung says. His voice comes out clearer than he might've expected, especially since he hadn't actually assumed he had the ability to speak. Either Doojoon has suddenly acquired the skill of subtlety – unlikely – or Junhyung has been spectacularly dense.

"I – what?" Doojoon asks, eyes snapping up. He drops the headphones entirely and Junhyung watches them clatter to the floor.

"If you like him, it's not stupid," he says. This is stupid, he thinks. Whatever I'm saying – that's stupid. But it feels like he's on the outside peering in. He doesn't know how to stop the train wreck that is his mouth. "Are you going to tell him?"

The thing is – well, the thing is, Doojoon doesn't know. He doesn't know much of anything, really. He says he likes Yoseob but he doesn't. He likes the act. He doesn't like the actor, because he isn't aware that it's an act at all.

He isn't aware of the insecure Yoseob or the angry Yoseob or the me-against-the-world mentality or the need to win, the desperate desire to be the best. He isn't aware of the way Junhyung worries for this Yoseob, worries and wins for him – tries to win for him. How the worst part of the past few months wasn't breaking up with his girlfriend or breaking his arm, it was the way he couldn't stand to be around Yoseob after they got upstaged because he felt so guilty.

Doojoon doesn't know. But then, he doesn't need to.

"I think – yeah, maybe."

Yoseob meets Doojoon outside of school twice a day because Doojoon brings him drinks. These drinks are, in reality, for Junhyung. Yoseob says he buys them himself, making daring, heroic trips to the store and skipping classes to do so. Junhyung knows the truth but goes along with it and graciously accepts the Cokes, laughing at Yoseob's facial expressions as he mimes being chased by alligators.

"You'd be good together," Junhyung says. His lips feel numb. He doesn't know what to do with his hands so they hang limp by his sides. "I think he likes you, too."

Yoseob talks about Doojoon a lot, but mostly it's I think I'm going to put gum in his headphones and Do you think he'll do my homework if I ask? Not that Yoseob doesn't like Doojoon, really. But Yoseob, much like Junhyung, seems to separate people into Us and Them. Us being Junhyung and Yoseob, Them being – well, everyone else. So his views on Doojoon are limited to What can he do for me? and Junhyung knows this.

What he doesn't know is how to tell Doojoon to back off without coming across as rude and unsupportive.

It's like the new kid – Kikwang, with the dancing and the fighting and the frustration of everything boiling up in Junhyung until it burst. Yoseob knew of his existence for about as long as it entertained him. After, it was forgotten, because it was deemed ultimately irrelevant. He couldn't remember the face or the back though he threw stuff at it with Dongwoon, the two of them conspiring while Junhyung napped lightly.

Yoseob is better about Doojoon, even better about Dongwoon, and he can remember Hyunseung's name and pick him out of a crowd if prompted to, but it's not the same. Junhyung knows that.

So maybe he's handing out false hope but Doojoon grins wide and grips his hand, pulling him into some sort of bro hug. By the time he lets go, Junhyung has fixed a smile on his face. He's sure it looks natural and genuine – he's learned from the best of actors, after all.

"Good luck," he says, and he means it. Doojoon will need it. And Junhyung is a big fan of things that make Yoseob happy – money, dancing, singing, winning and eventually Doojoon could be added to that list. One will never know until they try, and so, he steps aside.

He steps aside and makes room for Doojoon and thinks Everyone loves Yoseob but that's only because he wants them to.

The next day, Yoseob brings Junhyung another Coke and kicks his feet up on Dongwoon's side of the desk, chair tilting back, and Junhyung doesn't ask because he doesn't want to know and Yoseob doesn't tell because he's too busy being someone else.

Later, though, Yoseob will tell him everything and, for better or for worse, Junhyung will stick by his side, because they're not only friends – Junhyung is quite the fan of Yoseob's; after all, he's his favorite actor.
Current Mood: nervousnervous
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i'd look best if i weren't looking at allyayhooraywoohoo on April 5th, 2011 08:46 pm (UTC)
Haha, that's good :DD

Wow, thank you. Really, this comment is just... thank you so much! heart1
lucky sundaysenbonsakura on April 5th, 2011 01:01 pm (UTC)
This is awesome!
Love how you weave their intricately complicated relationship with each other just through Junhyung's thoughts.
Great job!
aikoaiko103 on April 5th, 2011 01:52 pm (UTC)
I'm speechless.
I like how you write it without beating around the bushes and just write it our clearly.
Junhyung adores Yoseob as a fan but as well as something more.
I just love your style of writing.

And the summary, it's the best line to take. It makes me what will happen.

This is Lovely although it's a bit angst.
i'd look best if i weren't looking at allyayhooraywoohoo on April 5th, 2011 08:45 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much! heartyeyes
aikoaiko103 on April 6th, 2011 11:14 am (UTC)
this is random but. OMG! Arashi!
it's been such a long time since i listen to them [sigh]
i'd look best if i weren't looking at all: kitto daijoubuyayhooraywoohoo on April 6th, 2011 03:48 pm (UTC)
I love Arashi! So yeah, this comm is pretty much filled with Arashi fic... only recently have I been branching out and trying to write B2ST :DD
aikoaiko103 on April 7th, 2011 01:10 pm (UTC)
really? cool! is your ohno pairing.. um... ohno the Dominant one or the Submissive? my fav member is captain! LOL! who's yours?
I never write Arashi before, but i wrote Hey!say!Jump. LOL!
i'd look best if i weren't looking at allyayhooraywoohoo on April 10th, 2011 01:27 am (UTC)
I usually write Ohno as M, since he's pretty M irl, but I've written him as S too. I don't really have a favorite, I love them all too much heartyeyes
aikoaiko103 on April 10th, 2011 04:49 am (UTC)
Ohno as M is love. I love him! kekekeee. everyone in arashi is very funny! and cute! you know, you may think it's weird but i ship ohno and gackt the most! my two bias.
i'd look best if i weren't looking at allyayhooraywoohoo on April 10th, 2011 07:36 pm (UTC)
Ohno and Gackt are so precious together, what with Ohno stealing his rings and everything :DD